My Writer's Block

I am no writer. I would not even know where to start and I think that is the problem. Where should I start? What should I write about or blog about. My problem is that I am the happy-go-lucky types. I don't form opinions on a lot of things very easily. While reading a book or watching a movie or a show I don't really think about why am I actually watching this? Why do I enjoy the drama/ comedy/ reality? I never thought about this and maybe that is why I never formed an opinion. My attitude towards it would be "it is nice, I am liking it" but I never dwelled further on do I like because maybe the character is more like me or someone I aspire to be?

I was sitting in the cafeteria with my colleague who has a double major in computer science and English. I was telling him about how I want to blog/ write a journal, but would never know what to write. I feel that I would be bored writing just about what happened each day. I want to write something that is not so mundane. That's when he asked me to write about my views/ opinions on various things in life. I then realized "that is my problem". I do not really have any perspective of my own. I enjoy life as it comes without taking a moment to think about why I enjoy it.

Tangenting off to a different topic that will answer the question " why don't i ask 'why' ?". So the organization that I work for conducted a behavior test for the "out of college" employees. It was called the DISC test where D stands for people with Dominance, I stands for people with Influence, S stands for people with Steadiness and C stands for people with Conscientiousness. Each of these behaviors are very different of course and they are most likely to look for answers to different questions. A caveat to this however is that this was conducted for behavior at work. So, the D folks are more likely to ask "what is it about". I folks will probably be more interested in "who is it with". S folks will want to know "how is it done" and C folks are the ones who want to know "why is it done". I will probably go into this study in more detail in my next post.

So coming back to the topic, I very much fall in the "Influence" category and I realized that all my life I have always wanted to be around people enjoying life with the "who's who" rather than asking "what am i doing, why am i doing it and how am i going to do it". I thought those questions would be answered easily when I am with the right people.

So what I am trying to say is that one of the reasons for me to never ask those questions and form an opinion is my nature.

The other very likely reason is the way I was brought up. Being brought up in a joint family, with my grandparents, uncles, aunts, cousins, I was never supposed to ask a lot of questions. I was suppose to do my work which was of course studying and other things that kids do. But I was never supposed to ask my dad where is he going or why are we going there and not somewhere else. It meant respect and trusting the elders in making those choices for you. However, it has affected the adult me as I yet avoid asking those questions and don't have "my" view on things. I realized so many of my opinions were formed by my family and friends.

However, living by myself in the US and meeting a variety of people and going through so many new experiences has made me pause in my fast moving life. I now want to ask all those questions and discover a new me and a new world. Thus starts blogging.